Valley

Saturday my back was feeling pretty damn good. I worked in the garden, turning soil over and pulling weeds and while there was a little soreness,  there was no major discomfort or stabbing pains. I felt enthusiastic about that, really. It was a good feeling to be able to move almost like I used to be.
     Saturday night I did some core exercises. They were as follows:
Gluten bridges x10 
Single leg gluten bridge x8 ea
Plank (forearms) 30 sec x2
Side plank 30 sec x2, ea side
3 point plank 15 sec x4 ea side
That circuit was performed twice. On the second go round, the regular planks were done with one of the 30 second holds done with Emily laying on my back. She's about 60lbs. 
     Then Sunday happened.
     We were all goofing around, having a great day when I tried to ride a mini bike. It got away from me and in the process I tweaked my back. Bad. That horrible pain, muscle spasms,  sore to touch. I feel like an asshole again for a lot of reasons. I'm embarrassed that I couldn't ride a mini bike for one, but I'm angry at myself for getting hurt doing something that shouldn't cause this pain. I'm upset that, once again, I feel like possibilities are slipping away from me. I want to give up. I more than likely won't,  but I feel like it.
     I don't give a damn about my diet anymore,  I don't give 2 shits about what I'm eating. I feel like I'm drowning  and I need to focus on being able to move pain free. So for right now, I'm eating what I want and like I used to. 
     I want to be able to do what I used to do, and that includes sneezing without horrific pain. I'm at a low point right now, big time. I've been through enough to know that this is probably temporary,  but I'm tired of it.
     Anyhow. Let's see how long it takes to feel better. I'm going to the gym tomorrow come hel or high water.  Updates will follow.