Deja Vu

KB swings:
[20lbs x20] 5x 
KB Clean & Press:
[20lbs x5 ea arm] 5x 
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     It seems like I've been here before - swinging a 20lb kettlebell like it's the heaviest thing I've ever lifted. Only this time it's me swinging a kettlebell knowing that it isn't the heaviest thing that I've lifted. This time it's me knowing I need to start over and so I am. 
     I did a large amount of yard work yesterday that included pushing a mower, watering the garden, building trellises and cutting brush.  I was bending, lifting, pushing, pulling and I felt pretty good. So I decided that today would be the day I get back in the game. It's time. So while this may not seem like a lot to some, and I admit that really it isn't, to me it's  a major step in proving to myself that I can still have my dreams and still be the person I want to be.
     There's still quite a bit of soreness and stiffness, especially after sitting for awhile.  This makes work so very enjoyable during the week,  but I've felt some progress and that has me optimistic. I'm sore now, just from that little bit that I did. My ego wanted me to push and do more, to "prove" that I could.  My brain wanted me to stop and let my muscles become reactivated to working. I sided with my brain and for that, I'm grateful.       A long road ahead, to be certain.  I plan on traveling slowly and steadfastly.  A little part of me is excited to start again, to have to relearn some things and put some new knowledge into play. I am a living experiment and the outcome is anyone's guess.