Just Calm Down

[Orange band f.p. x15 / band pull downs x15 / push ups x15] 3x 
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PRESS:
65lb x3 
75lb x3 
85lb x3 
95lb x4
[95lb x3] 4x
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UNIVERSAL BAR:
[o.h. tri. Ext x15 / front ext. x15] 3x 
DB T's &Y's:
8lb x10
12lb x8
15lb x3
REVERSE FLYS:
20lb x10
25lb x8
30lb x6
CHEST FLYS:
20lb x15
25lb x8
30lb x6
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[55lb KB swing x10 / 35lb o.h. swing x10 / 95lb hip thrusters x10] 3x 
SINGLE LEG RDL:
20lb x10 ea
30lb x8
40lb x6
50lb x3
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Hang from reverse hyper
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     Nobody showed up for class tonight, so twas just me myself and I. For most of the night that is. When I first got there i walked into a weight room full of large men. Not gonna lie - I was intimidated. I'm not sure if I'll ever lose the feeling that I don't belong in there, but last night it was strong. So I took the orange band and went out to the other rack and did some pre-exhaustion work. By the time I got to the presses, all but one had left so I felt a little more at ease.
     I have noticed a bad habit I have (one of many) when I'm in the gym with other people. That is that I tend to rush through everything. It's a combination of nerves, self doubt, wanting to look like I can just bang shit out....it's annoying as all hell to myself. Beyond being annoying it's detrimental to my training and can be dangerous if I don't keep good form. So I settled my mind, took some deep breaths and tried to get into my own little world. I think it worked fairly well.
     I was disappointed on one hand that I didn't get 5x5 on the presses but I'm happy that I made 95lb for as many as I did. Next session will be the full 5x5, I'm sure. I wanted to either squat or deadlift, however, my back had other plans. It had been feeling a little taxed over the past couple of days and I'm totally gun shy about sending it over the edge like last time. So I dialed everything back and kept it to moderate DB & KB work.
     The reverse flys started falling apart with the last few reps of the 25lb and with all of the 30lb, but It felt good to be moving heavier DB; there's something very empowering when you move heavy, compact weight. The chest flys felt great and they've always been one of my favorite movements to do.
     I'm sore this morning but it's OK. Some of it is DMS, some of it isn't, so I'm being cautious. I'll try to do the Fast Eddie core set again tonight and see if I can shave some seconds off of my time. Results (good or bad) will be posted so stay tuned!