Feels Pretty Good

      Upper body tonight. Still sticking with the dumbbell routines for now. I realized the other night that I'm seriously pissed off with myself. Not disappointed, or sad or depressed. Just purely pissed for letting things pass through my hands. Maybe that anger at myself will be the thing that drives me to keep going. Who knows. I just know that I'm taking one day at a time and tonight felt pretty good. I even went up in weight on the rows. Here's what got done:

(20lb DB bent rows x10) 4x

25lb DB bench x10

35lb DB bench x10

35lb DB bench x6, 25lb x4

25lb DB bench x10

(10lb DB lat raise x12) 3x

(20lb DB pullover x12) 3x

20lb DB zottman curls x12

20lb DB gladiator curl x12

(20lb DB seated tri. Ext. x12) 2x

(35lb KB shrugs x15) 2x

     And that's what got done. I'm sore but satisfied.

Discipline Doesn't Exist

     Still have no discipline. Still have minimal amounts of motivation. Still haven't totally given up. Over the past two days, here's what I got done:

SATURDAY:

(25lb Goblet squat x10) 4x

(20lb - ea. hand - db RDL x10) 4x

(35lb kb plie squat x10) 4x

(20lb db hamstring curl x12) 3x

(35lb kb standing calf raise x12) 3x

(20 sec. plank) 2x

SUNDAY:

(20lb db single arm row x10) 4x

(15lb db shoulder press x10) 4x (strict)

(20lb incline db press x12) 3x

(20lb chest supported db row x12) 3x

(20lb db hammer curl x12) 2x

(25lb db floor press x12) 2x

(25lb db seated shrug x15) 2x