Never Quit

     Tonight was a rough one in the dungeon. At first, I wasn't going to work out with Em because I wasn't really feeling it. But she gave me the pouty face, so I reluctantly changed my clothes, and went downstairs.

     We started with some pushups. That's when it started - the "I can't do it" attitude. Boy, if anything pisses me off it's the way she gives 1% effort and then throws her hands up saying "I can't do it". I got her through 3 lackluster sets and then decided we would do some shrugs. She did them, but let's just say her set of 20 went awful quick and when I did the last set of 25 with her, with me counting, she finished before me. Go figure. 

     I had decided I would teach her dumbbell deadlifts because she's just not strong enough for much else. But she told me she couldn't stretch to reach them on the floor. **sigh**.  Alrighty....hey, let's do some stretching. What could go wrong with that? And that's when I lost my shit. Zero effort to try and stretch further than she thought she could. Absolute crap. So, I told her I was done. I stormed upstairs, pissed beyond belief but now, I didn't want to quit. I'm tired of fucking quitting. I marched myself into her bedroom and told her that I was going back downstairs and if she wanted to join me, she could, but I was not going to force her. She did not join me. 

     After all of that bullshit, here's what got done:

PUSHUPS:

Em: 3 crappy sets of 10

Me: 10x3

SHRUGS:

Em: 15lb x10, x20 (questionable), x25 (also questionable)

Me: 30lb 15x2, x25

This is where it all fell to shit and Emily stayed upstairs. I continued on alone.

DEADLIFTS:

(135lb x5) 3x

155lb x5

185lb x3

205lb x1

135lb x5

SWISS PIKE:

7x3

BAND HIP ADDUCTION & ABDUCTION:

Purple band adduction 20x2 (each leg)

Purple band abduction 20x2 (each leg)

     And that's all I did. I was surprised that I got those deadlifts done. I haven't deadlifted in months, but they felt OK. After I was done, both knees were fairly sore though. We'll see how they feel tomorrow. Not as much as I should be doing, but at least I tried. I'm very disappointed in Em tonight. As much as I cuss and swear and get agitated, even she admits that I never quit. I may walk away and vent, but you'll always see me turn around and finish what I was doing. OK, maybe 99% of the time. But her attitude is something that I've never had. I just don't understand it. I suppose we'll be having a discussion about it at some point. 

     I've started physical therapy for my knees. I don't plan on doing a ton of appointments. I have 3 scheduled and that will probably be it. My knees travel weirdly, and it's worn down the cartilage. My doctor said I should wear either KT tape or braces on both knees, every day. I'm doing the KT tape, but I'm not totally sold. The physical therapist told me that I may want to consider McConnell tape because it's stiffer. I go back on Friday, so we'll see.

     Basically, all of my muscles and shit are tight. My IT band pops on my hip relentlessly and something else is popping in my back. I have a bunch of stretches that she gave me. Blah blah blah. All I want to do is get to a place where I can strengthen myself enough that I'm not in such pain just crouching down to get stuff from my kitchen cabinets. I hate feeling like an old woman, I hate being so overweight and I hate being weak. I also hate being hungry, so I'm going to eat.