Disappointed

Warm up stretches, jumping jacks, blah blah
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DEADS:
145lb x10
165lb x8
175lb x6
185lb x3, 4x
135lb x15, x10,  x10 
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And that's all I got. I wasn't even going to go out there tonight, but some good hearted teasing and encouragement got me moving. So with my head pounding, I started, and didn't get very far.
I feel like I've lost strength. I feel like I'm aimless and floundering and nowhere near where I should be. Maybe it's just me being under the weather, I don't know. I'm definitely in a funk and I don't like it. All I can do is keep grinding as much as I can, I guess. Even doing one deadlift is better than doing none. 
I suppose everything waxes and wanes, motivation and enjoyment probably do it too. But drive doesn't.  Maybe I have drive because even if I'm slow, I keep going. I'm either driven, or too stupid to know when to quit. 
Whatever the case may be, I'm still disappointed.