Rest

     Thursday night's training was, in my mind, a bust. I know Justin will feel differently, but compared to what I've done in the past, it was a beginner's session. The pain in my back is near to unbearable at this point so I did some squats with an empty bar, low reps and then mostly body weight and resistance band work. I feel like an asshole. I miss training heavy, I miss moving gross amounts of weight and lifting weird shit. I miss my boulders, my sand bag and my log. I miss deadlifting, I miss going for personal bests, I miss it all. I've been reduced to basic body weight movements and at times, even those are too much.
     My transition to a low carb diet is going well and I'm sure my frustration and crankiness can be blamed, in part, to that. I suppose even my fatigue could rest partially on that. But I also know that I'm tired of this pain; physically tired from hurting. 
     As much as I didn't want to, I've scheduled another appointment with my chiropractor for tomorrow and maybe I can get enough of a tweak  to get me to heal and get rid of this pain. I cannot and will not go every week. That's not the type of life I want to live and I've honestly questioned if I should have started this chiropractor stuff in the first place. I can't change the decisions that I've already made, but I sure as hel can change the ones that I make in future. 
     I won't be posting my food intake and macros every day, I'll keep track of them still in my notebook, but I see no need to add another chore to my list that's already overwhelmingly long. 
     I'm not sure if I'll be training at all this week. I've already pushed when I shouldn't have and fucked myself in the process; lesson learned (again), but I will be stretching at home. I'm the first one to preach about rest and recovery from injuries so maybe it's time that I took my own advice. I hate it, though, and I won't even lie about that. This whole debacle is putting me even further behind the eight ball. For right now, I need a break physically and mentally. My spirit is a bit clouded over at this point but I know that eventually those clouds will lift and the sun will warm everything again. 
Peace out. Updates soon.