Just Fed Up...Again

DEADS:
135lb x3 
155lb x3 
185lb x5 
155lb x5
135lb x14
135lb x10
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BENCH:
65lb x3
95lb x3 
115lb x3 
95lb x3 
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Yesterday I couldn't train. Today I was determined to but it didn't happen until 7pm. That was after coming home and doing some major rearranging in the yard. I was already tired and in no mood for this shit. Truly. But I wanted to do something. I felt good with the deads. No real joy like I use to have with them. It was a chore tonight. So was the bench press and that didn't go well at all. I felt weak, I felt a tug in my shoulder and just felt bad all around.
You know, I'm really tired of being fed up with this all. Tired of being rushed, tired of having no time to settle in and actually enjoy this, tired of being tired. Mentally I'm not in a good spot right now. In all honesty I'd like to put my fist through a wall.  Just like old times. 
Whatever.  I haven't even eaten yet. Maybe I'll get around to that at some point.