Halfway Mark

WARM UP

PAUSED SQUATS:

65lb x10 ***ATG, 5 second pause, no bounce to get back up***

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MAIN LIFT

BACK SQUAT:

(145lb x2) 8x

45 second rest between sets

SUPPLEMENTAL LIFT

DEADS:

(145lb x2) 8x

20 second rest between sets

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ACCESSORIES

BB REVERSE LUNGE:

Bar x10

65lb x10

***Knees were feeling wonky even with sleeves on. Switched to something else***

DONKEY KICK / PULSE:

(10lb x10 / x10 ea leg) 3x

FIRE HYDRANT:

(10lb x10 ea leg) 3x

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Technical stuff out of the way first. Everything felt OK, not great, but OK. My form felt a little off on both the squats and the deads and overall I felt a smidge weak and washed out. My knees were achy on the lunges and I attribute that to the friggin weather and the fact that I'm old enough to be negatively affected by the friggin weather. I would say that the majority of my issues both mental and physical could be mitigated by a better diet. I'm not even going to get into that right now. I can't even....

Now, for the nontechnical stuff. Finishing up today means that I have officially reached the halfway point in this 12 week program. I'm disappointed in some respects and pleased in others. I'm disappointed that I have not lost any weight. Not one goddamned pound. In fact, depending on when I step on my scale, I've actually gained 3 pounds. Again, diet may be playing more than a small role here and my refusal to address it is a classic case of deliberate avoidance of responsibility. So moving right along...

What I am pleased with is that I've maintained a training program for 6 weeks, 4 days per week (minus that one day that I was laid up). I've wanted to quit more than once because I was depressed and disappointed. All that would have done is made me even more depressed and disappointed. I've been in that cycle before and it was ugly. I figured I might as well stick to the plan and then I'd at least have one less thing to be depressed and disappointed about. I suppose that's worked because there are still things that are bothering me but quitting isn't one of them. 

Seriously, I know that I need to get my eating habits under control. I've been fighting that battle for my entire life and I was in the win column at one time. Then life happened and I slid back; way back. When I look at how I've mustered the discipline to train regularly, it gives me hope that I can do the same sort of thing with food. There's truly no logical reason why I can't. We'll see. Tomorrow is a new day and the start of 6 new weeks.