Where is the Progress?

     I'm a date late updating my training notes. Here's what we did yesterday:

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BACK SQUATS:

95lb x10

115lb x8

(145lb x5) 3x

95lb x10

ZERCHER SQUATS:

     These weren't programmed and I wasn't even going to included them in my notes. We were talking about them and so I just wanted to screw around and see if I could still do them. It's been years since I've tried.

Bar x10

95lb x4

45° LEG PRESS:

190lb x10

(280lb x5) 2x

STANDING CALF RAISE:

(Machine Weight x12) 2x

(+45lb x7) 2x

SEATED LEG CURLS:

(100lb x15) 4x

LEG EXTENSIONS:

(95lb x12) 4x

ADDUCTER/ABDUCTER:

(40lb x10 ea.) 3x

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     It wasn't a bed time. Everything felt OK. My right knee was pissed off and very sore when I got home but it felt fine today; a little stiff, but not bad. It all seems to be going along well so I don't want to jinx it by talking it up too much. What isn't going well is my nutrition.

     I've been macro tracking for about a week or so now and I'm driving myself crazy. I'm not eating enough according to what I figured my base calories should be. I either get way too many carbs, or not nearly enough, and I haven't gotten enough protein on any day since I've started. My weight neither goes up or down, and nobody has even noticed any physical changes to my body. So why the hell am I killing myself? Why am I spending all this mental energy trying to nail down macros when apparently, I have no idea what I'm doing? Why am I working my ass off when it doesn't seem to be making any difference. 

     My mood is low and there doesn't seem to be any light at the end of this tunnel. Oh well.