Getting Caught Up

     I've been lax in updating my logs. I know, all 15 of you are deeply disappointed in me and I extend my deepest, most sincere apologies. I'm going to list all of the past 2 days' plus tonight's training log.  But wait, my astute readers are probably saying that there should be 4 days plus tonight. You would be correct, however, we had a family emergency and missed Monday and Tuesday of this week. Hopefully, your disgust in my laxness will subside as you read through tonight's post. Let's wait no more, here's what got done:

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Thursday 11/6

DYNAMIC BENCH:

(105lb x3) 10x

SEATED DB PRESS:

30lb x5

35lb x4

30lb x5

CHEST SUPPORTED T / STANDING Y:

(10lb x10 / 10lb x10) 3x

STANDING CABLE FLY:

High - 35lb x10

Mid - 25lb x15

Low - 30lb x6, x4

SEATED REAR CABLE FLY:

80lb x10

80lb x6, x4

70lb x5, x2, x3

FRIDAY 11/7

DYNAMIC SQUATS:

(125lb x2) 10x

DYNAMIC DEADS:

(177lb x2) 5x

ELEVATED SPLIT SQUAT:

(weight per hand)

(18lb x10 ea. leg) 2x

SEATED HAMSTRING CURLS:

(100lb x12) 3x

LEG EXTENSIONS:

(100lb x12) 3x

THURSDAY 11/13

DYNAMIC BENCH:

55lb wide/mid/ narrow x10 ea.

(105lb x3) 8x

*I screwed up and should've gone 5lbs heavier. That's what I get for not looking back at my notes!

SEATED O.H. PRESS:

65lb x5

75lb x5

(75lb x4) 2x

CABLE NEUTRAL GRIP FRONT RAISE:

(15lb x10) 3x

CABLE UPRIGHT ROW:

(15lb x10) 3x

CABLE HIGH FACE PULL:

(30lb x10) 3x

The video that I used as inspiration for this stuff can be found here.

HANGING KNEE RAISES:

10 3x

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     I feel like I could've done more tonight. Frank doesn't think I'm doing enough to get stronger and doesn't think that what I'm doing is going to benefit me at all. I'm on the fence. My numbers are going in the right direction on the big lifts and even on the smaller accessories. I think I just have to trust the process right now. I know that I do need to add in more core work because that's a weak area for me. This is a 12 week program so I have nothing to lose by giving it a go for the full run and then seeing what progress I've made.

     I also still struggle on the daily with food. At this point, I feel like that's a lost cause. It's frustrating beyond words. I've downloaded numerous meal plans but they all fall short of satisfying me. I'm constantly hungry. And this isn't boredom disguised as hunger. This is true hunger pangs hunger. It feels like my stomach is echoing with emptiness when I wake up in the morning and no matter what I do, it never fills. Of course, this means I turn to quick, snacky foods that are 100% not good for me and do almost nothing to help me feel full. Anyone who knows me knows that I have battled food my entire life. I think about it constantly, beat myself up over my choices constantly, and let myself down constantly. It wears on me and I'm tired. 

     Anyhoo...I just had an enormous pork chop for dinner with some green beans and rice. Yes, I'm still hungry. I'm going to have a hot cup of tea and play a game to keep my mind busy.