Tiny Step

Just 2 quick sets while I was making dinner tonight:
[(35lb KB swings x20)5x / 35lb KB Clean & Press x5 ea arm] 2x 
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Nothing truly noteworthy,  but it is a tiny step in the right direction. The sets of 20 went well and I felt powerful with the hip drive which I'm very pleased with. This is almost halfway to the 500 swings that I used to do. No back pain to speak of, although it's been sensitive for the last week. I feel like I should be able to squat next Wednesday though, so we'll see.
The presses went well too and the 35lb felt easy enough with a slight push press. I was a little worried that I had tweaked my shoulders but I'm happy to say I have not! Haha, like I need another injury!

Triumph

COYOTE: (KB swings / KB Goblet Squat / Push Ups
[35lb 15 / 5 / 5] 5x
[45lb 10 / 3 / 5] 5x
[55lb 5 / 2 / 5} 5x
[35lb 15 / 1 (20 sec. deep hold) / 5} 5x
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[Sit ups (GHR) x20 / Back Raises x10] 2x
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PRESS:
Bar x10
65lb x3
75lb x3
[85lb x3] 4x
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DB & BAND MEDLEY:
Orange band face pulls x15
Orange band tricep pull downs x15
DB T& Y x15 / x8 /x6 / x3
DB front raise / squeeze x15 / x8 / x6 / x3
Weights on the last 2 exercises were 5lb, 10lb, 12lb, 15lb
This medley was done 4x
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CORE MEDLEY:
[sit ups x20 / Burpees x10 / H.K.R. x10] 3x
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     I felt super weak on the presses and I'm sure all the push ups I had done were playing into that. It's humbling to get your ass kicked by a simple push up. It felt goos to get that dumnb bell work in; I've neglected them as of late. I feel like I'm getting back into some sort of routine, although the sessions are still scattered, I'm slowly adding more into them. 
     Not too happy about not squatting, but I'm trying to be mature and intelligent here! Those two things are not always easy to achieve in the gym. For me, anyhow, it's difficult at times to put that ego aside and let your brain lead the way. But there's something intoxicating about going in each week and testing yourself, seeing what your body can do. It's a mental pump. I'm still in the process of training my brain to be proud of not only physical accomplishments, but mental ones as well. People can see your physical accomplishments; you can take videos and show them off and people give you pats on the back and such. But those mental accomplishments -  having the discipline to go in when it's the last thing you want to do; having the restraint to stay out from under the bar when it may cause injury even when you're itching to push weight; those things are things that no one sees and not too many want to hear about. Be proud of them anyhow. For those people who just exercise, they'll never understand that the physical work is sometimes the easiest part. The mental work is exhausting and testing and it can beat you down. So in those times when you triumph over your own mind, be just as proud as in those times when you triumph over the iron. The mind is often a mightier foe. 

Numbers Don't Lie

SQUATS:
95lb x3 
135lb x3
145lb x3
[165lb x5] 3x 
165lb x4
165lb x2
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REVERSE HYPER / SITUPS ON GHR
Machine weight x10 / 20
+20lbs x10 / 20
+50lb x10 / 0
It was a little hectic to try and work my stuff in so it wasn't really a complete finisher set.
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I didn't have much time so I just did the bare necessity for squats. I'm pleased that I'm back at body weight for the squats but not so pleased that I didn't get the full 5x5.
This is the beauty of having a plan and keeping track of it. The ego HAS to be checked at the door because the numbers don't lie. You either complete the task you laid out or you don't.  Tonight I did not, but that's ok. I'm not there yet. Next week the weight will stay the same and I'll try the sets again. 

Just Fed Up...Again

DEADS:
135lb x3 
155lb x3 
185lb x5 
155lb x5
135lb x14
135lb x10
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BENCH:
65lb x3
95lb x3 
115lb x3 
95lb x3 
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Yesterday I couldn't train. Today I was determined to but it didn't happen until 7pm. That was after coming home and doing some major rearranging in the yard. I was already tired and in no mood for this shit. Truly. But I wanted to do something. I felt good with the deads. No real joy like I use to have with them. It was a chore tonight. So was the bench press and that didn't go well at all. I felt weak, I felt a tug in my shoulder and just felt bad all around.
You know, I'm really tired of being fed up with this all. Tired of being rushed, tired of having no time to settle in and actually enjoy this, tired of being tired. Mentally I'm not in a good spot right now. In all honesty I'd like to put my fist through a wall.  Just like old times. 
Whatever.  I haven't even eaten yet. Maybe I'll get around to that at some point.

Proud

BACK SQUATS:
65lb x6 / paused H.K.R x6
105lb x3 / H.K.R x6 
125lb x3 / H.K.R x6 
[155lb x5] 5x 
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G.H.R. Situps x20 / Reverse Hyper x15
Situps x20/ Rev. Hyper +10lbs x x10
Situps x20 / Rev. Hyper +20lbs x5
Situps x20 / Rev. Hyper +30lbs x3
Situps x20 / Rev. Hyper +40lbs x3
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O.H. PRESS
Bar x10
65lb x3
75lb x3
[85lb x5] 5x 
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Super pleased with my squat progress as well as my press. I didn't get as much upper body accessory as I would have liked, but at least I got the main lift in. I have a video of my squats, but it's too hard to upload it from my phone so maybe I'll post that tomorrow.
All in all, I'm proud.

Shirts Are Optional

BENCH:
65lb x3 
95lb x3 
105lb x3 
[115lb x5] 3x 
115lb x3
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DEADS:
115lb x3 
135lb x3 
155lb x3 
185lb x5 
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On the last set of 5 of the bench, I actually slid down the bench about 4". I had just gotten done talking to Frank about how I don't like wearing t-shirts on the bench because I can't grip it with my shoulders. Thankfully he was there to assist on the lift with that one. I had also loosened up a little and I think that slack in my body led to me slipping because it changed my angle on the bench. The only option (because I didn't feel like running upstairs for a tank top ) I had was to take my shirt off and continue on. I'm disappointed that I only managed 3 more reps. 
I seem to have plateaued on my deadlifts which is really pissing me off. My plan of attack is to do some hamstring accessory work to see if I can strengthen that area. I also my throw in some block pulls as well. 
Plateaus are bound to happen but every plateau can be overcome with steady work.

Lifting Is Hard. Math is STILL Harder

50lb DB shrugs x50 
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BACK SQUATS:
Bar x10 / Paused Hanging Knee Raises x6
95lb x3 / H.K.R x6
110lb x3 / H.K.R x6
125lb x3 / H.K.R x6
140lb x5
[145lb x5] 4x 
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[Situps on the GHR x20] 2x 
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[Front lunge / step ups / Reverse lunge / squat jumps] 3x :
40lb / 45lb / 50lb
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5lb weighted situs x20
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I had initially planned to do my presses as well, but I ran out of time before class started and I couldn't stay late. So, presses will have to wait. I'm super pleased at making the 145lb tonight. I thought I had that on the bar the first time, but obviously my math skills are lacking.  So the first set was only 140lb.  Still not bad though! If I keep up this pace, then in 6 weeks I'll break 200lbs. The feeling of seeing such progress again is almost indescribable. I'm excited again at the prospect of the weights I'll be making and the goals I may be FINALLY close to achieving. 

Just Keep Going

DEADS:
115lb x3
135lb x3 
155lb x3 
185lb x5
195lb x2
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BENCH:
65lb x3
95lb x3 
[110lb x5] 5x 
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It was 7:30pm and I was disappointed that I had let the day slip by without training. I'm tired of disappointing myself so I said "fuck it", and went downstairs. 
I'm frustrated with not being able to press or squat here at home, but I have to just keep going and do what I can. I'm simply going to have to save squats and presses for Wednesday nights when I'm in the gym. I figure I can work in seated presses and lunges and such for at home.  
So it was a quick work out, nothing to write home about, but I feel good knowing I did it. I hit my 3 days training this week wich makes me feel good too.